Mother's Day is such a mix of emotions for me. I am so grateful for my children and I feel so full of life and grateful when I hear them call my name. It is the best job in the world and I do not take one moment for granted with my three blessings.
...but there is also a sense of extreme sadness on the day that we are meant to honor our own mothers.
This is the fourth Mother's Day I have spent without my mom and it does not get any easier for me. I miss her to the core of my very being. She was such a giving and caring person; she never thought twice about sacrificing her own needs/wants for those of her two daughters. I would give anything to have just five more minutes with her to tell her how much I appreciated her and loved her.
I have been trying to talk to Shaylah about her Grandma and I am so saddened by the fact that she will never meet her. My mom had such a special bond with children and she always made a big fuss over the little people in her life. She constantly talked about how proud she was of her great-niece Faith and great-nephews Declan and Gabe (Jen's kids)....the closest she ever got to being the grandmother that she longed to be. Even after she had passed away, we found gifts for these special kids hidden away in her closet.
My mom was so supportive of me and made me believe I could do anything in life. She always had a way of making me feel better about myself, especially when I was feeling low.
With my mom in this world, I always knew I was loved. I miss the unconditional love that only a parent can give. I love you Mom!
5 comments:
Such a special lady, eh...makes it so hard. She surely would have been proud of you and your kid's.
I am sorry for the losses that you have to deal with on a DAILY basis.
Holly
Oh, Marsalie - I have tears after reading this beautiful post about your mom. I'm so sorry about the loss of your mom. I love what you have written about her and these wonderful pictures. One thing that has helped me with loss is knowing that our loved ones are never far from us. Take Care. Love, Aimee
Mars, that is a wonderful post. It made me think of the time down at Birch Bay one summer day Faith wanted me to fill up a little pool and then promptly climb it getting if filthy with all the dead grass and demanding that I refill it with clean water - all the while Declan is crying because he is hungry. Your Mom and my Mom were sitting in lawn chairs at your cabin laughing at me! But all I had to say to them was "Thank you so much for all you guys did when we were kids!" It's not an easy job being a mom but you are doing a fantastic job and your Mom would be sooo proud of you and your beautiful children (not to mention how proud your Dad is!).
Love,
Jen
I know. I agree. I'm sorry. I think you are a wonderful mom and your mom would be so proud!
awww... I was teary reading about your mom. Your love for her is so obvious, and I know despite your wish to be able to tell her again how much she meant to you, that she had to know it in her heart. She sounds as beautiful as she looks in her pictures, and her legacy is that she left behind such a beautiful, loving, caring daughter in you to continue blessing the world :)
leanne
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